I was in the locker room at the gym after a killer workout and I felt so great about myself… until I saw her round, perfect, very perky breast. At that moment, my whole body just shut down and I felt defeated. I instantly had a feeling of grave depression… what happened to mine [perky breast]? Where did they go?

I started to day dream of my young tenderoni days when I went braless; when I had the option of bra or no bra. I never had really big breast growing up, but they weren’t small either. My chest was proportionally just the right size for my body. I didn’t develop too early but I still remember the day I got my first training bra and I was through the roof! I think I was going into junior high from 4th-5th grade and it was senior day or a class trip and I was comparing my chest size with the other girls on the school bus and we were all gleaming with pride as we were all moving up to the level of a brassiere. I remember thinking this was such a huge deal going from those thin cut Haines bras to an actual training bra! Go me! I proudly showing them the ruffles and how my bra clasp and closed in the back. I even showed off be pretty flowered patterns and the structure and wiring in my “bra”. Even the term rolled off my tongue. “I’m moving into a bra now”. Through the years, i was a B/C cup as my body frame remained sleek and slender. Throughout college I began eating all the great cafeteria foods and I began to really coming into womanhood and I steadily remained at a 36C. Then pregnancy happened, the weight gain naturally accompanied my pregnancy and my dreams were shattered of ever going braless again (unless I opt for surgery). During my pregnancy I went to target to get a new bra and I remember needing a 40D/DD; I flatlined.

Post pregnancy I breastfed for 2+ years and after losing 65lb I am pleased to be back down to a 36C/D. Unfortunately with the joys of breastfeeding, I sacrificed my breast in the process. My once perky breast are now raisins and a bit saggy :(. I had no idea that the baby sucks the life (literally) out of your breast when they breastfeed and the aftermath is daunting.

Overall I am fine with it, what can you do right? As national breastfeeding week comes to a close, I am happy for my accomplishment of exclusively breastfeeding my son, but did my breast have to be the sacrifice? Couldn’t they just take my leg or something? Lol I kid! So as I snapped out of my hypnosis while I awkwardly stared at the 20-something year old with the perky boobs at the gym, I couldn’t help but think… Baby girl, don’t worry, have fun with them as long as you can! Gravity, old age, and breastfeeding is right around the corner waiting to take your perky breast!

To be young again, with perky, perfectly round breast. RIP



7 Comments on RIP to my perfect breast- National Breastfeeding Week

  1. Candace
    September 15, 2015 at 6:37 am (3 years ago)

    GIRL!! Something happened the summer between freshmen and sophomore year of undergrad but I went straight from a cute little B, speed through C, and ended up in a D cup and then once my son came I’ve been in DDD hell 🙁 swimsuit shopping is the worse!

    • twobrooklynbabes
      September 15, 2015 at 10:43 am (3 years ago)

      Men have it easy… but they complain the most. They dont have these body issues!

  2. Nsharin R
    August 7, 2016 at 4:58 pm (2 years ago)

    They are like half deflated water balloons but eventually you get some meat restored but the perky is gone gone gone

  3. Cat Downing
    August 8, 2016 at 9:18 am (2 years ago)

    Loved the article and thank you for your honestly. I saw my16 year old sisters boobs recently sitting high and perfectly perkey and I thought “enjoy em while you got em” cuz exclusive on demand breast feeding for 22 months done took my boobs away. Now they look like “saggy raisins”. And I proudly wear my push up bras and gel fillers when I want big and proudly wear my little bsizebsize cup bra or go braless when I want to enjoy their tininess. I finally realized Victoria’s secret. It’s that you can just buy the boobs you want for temporary change ups. Lol. No shame in my post breast feedding itty bitty titty committee game.

  4. Britney
    August 8, 2016 at 11:45 am (2 years ago)

    I can so relate! After breastfeeding 3 children I deflated from a perky full B to a flat A. Thankfully, my hubby loves them just the way they are lol.

  5. Kim
    August 9, 2016 at 9:01 am (2 years ago)

    My breasts are still big (30/32 F or G) they just aren’t as full. That’s nothing a little breast enhancement can’t fix 😉 lol

  6. Valerie Pierre
    August 10, 2016 at 12:39 pm (2 years ago)

    Yes!! I didn’t breastfeed but I pumped the perk is long gone. I thought I was the only one who took notice of perky boobs while looking at my own like, why? lol But I can offer a silver lining, out of nowhere my boobs grew from a 34C to a 36DD!! But like someone else mentioned the perk isn’t here. I feel like all mothers should get free boob implants/lift and tummy tucks for free!


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